Balance

By the time Friday night came around I was having a mental breakdown. Struggling to figure out my new role in this new house and new family dynamic. Struggling to balance me time, Scott time, and time for/with/ doing for the children. It is crazy going from working, a active social life, and routine to living in Germany. You see Friday the movers were due to come pick up boxes so I spent the afternoon waiting for them but they never showed only calling an hour past the closing time to say they weren't coming. Well in the meantime I had made plans to go out with the kids to eat and shop but all had to change as I waited for movers. Now this may not sound like a big deal but that little shopping trip was what was getting me through the day, my little bit of personal sunshine. So needless to say all plans changed and I broke down. After tears, beer, and ice cream I gathered myself together!
Now comes the part of this journey were I have to find me, were I have to do things that I enjoy again! Yes of course I will still need to guide the kids through this process but I have to make sure to look out of my needs. Plus a helpful reminder to Scott that I need his support as well. So Saturday Scott drove me the grocery store to give me a break on pulling up hill, and than we all went out for a relaxing dinner downtown. And than Sunday morning I ran for the first time in a month, thank God! Balance will come, but as with everyones life it is a struggle. Sometimes it can even seem more impossible when you don't have a network to help you through. In time that will come to!